Today has been weird.

I've been overly happy, but I finally realized why: two people (maybe more, don't know currently) are annoying me so much I'm over-compensating for my annoyance with happiness.

Hah. Why am I not surprised. I'm sure it's because I've been so down lately that people have been upset, so I'm trying to fix it by being happy. I'm such a people pleaser.

Don't

Don't ask me how I'm doing.

I don't know.

I just feel... numb. I can't describe it any other way. All the things that are happening out of no where... I don't understand it.

I hide under my bed a lot.

Thankfully Megan knows when I want to be left alone, and doesn't bother me much. I feel bad though, because she can tell I'm hurting and doesn't know what to do to help me.

I think I just need a good long hug.

The 15th cannot come fast enough.

Frustrated

I am really annoyed right now.

Honestly, the only people I miss and look forward to seeing are Leanne, Lindsay and my siblings. Sorry to those reading this that will get offended, but I really like it here and it's nice to be away from people. So I was super excited when Leanne was going to drive down here Saturday and spend the day with me! Just me and her would be so fun!

...But no.

*sigh*

yippee....

EDIT: I am not saying I don't want to see anyone else. I just don't want to spend all weekend with everyone; I want a little bit of time with just Leanne.

Crazy...

So.... I was informed last night that I write a lot of depressing posts. While I agree I write a lot of them, I don't think I write a ton of them.....

Anyways, this one is slightly depressing.

I am so stressed right now. I have a hold on my account because I don't have my tuition paid in full, so I can't add a I class I need next semester. AND I can't qualify for the loan I need without a co-signer. AND my floormate found out this morning her youth pastor was hit and killed by a drunk driver :( Supporting her is taking most of my energy... I'm so drained right now, and my shoulders are sooo tense. However, I am the official floor masseuse but I can't massage myself :/ So lame. And Megan is getting sick... so I feel like I can't talk to her at all. Oi.

Life is crazy.

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