Hurt. A little betrayed.
Why hurt? I had hoped that the bonds we shared would last forever; they were a bond that could never be broken, no matter what happened. Now I'm not so sure. As I try to accept the impending loss of my closest friends, another piece of news shatters my heart. One of my friends will not be around much the rest of the summer. As I read this on my phone screen, my vision blurs as the tears flow freely. How could this happen? Why now, of all times? I don't understand. I feel as though a part of my past is being taken away as well. There will never be another to replace them; they are and will always be unique. As the pain fades slightly, it still seethes beneath my happy mask. It will always be there, a constant shadow of what will never be again.
Betrayed? A little. The wonderful plans that I had hoped would strengthen the already fraying bonds between friends have been cast aside, replaced with plans that only seem to pull friends farther apart. Is it me? Is this why you chose that? I guess I don't blame you. You always wanted to make it easier for me, a clean break.
Well, as the song says:
Just walk away,
Don't look back.
'Cause if my heart breaks
It's gonna hurt so bad.
You know I'm strong,
But I can't take that,
Before it's too late:
Just walk away.
The childhood I once knew is gone.
NOTE: This blog is not meant to be mean in any way. It is just me explaining how I feel.
