Scared....

I'm honestly scared.....


Tonight was fun. It really was. I'm glad I decided to go instead of back out. However.... I did not think it would come back. Especially THERE of all places.

It was hard fighting it... It really was. I'm just grateful that I have friends who know what I mean when I tell them something and don't tell anyone else. (Thank you, you know who you are!) Still...

I want/wanted this to end. I thought it was over.

I don't want to fight this battle anymore.