Yay Vlog!

Because this is such a loooooong update, I'm making you watch it to find out what I'm up to ;) It involves a crazy boyfriend, Disney, apartments, lack of a cat, and much more! It's worth it, I promise!

Seasonal Depression

Yeah... so I haven't posted on here in over a month. But here we go.

This week was insane. It started out okay, and then from about 9PM Monday night to about 10PM Wednesday night it became one of the worst 48 hour time frames of my life. I cried way more than I have in awhile, and made way too many phone calls to people to cry and vent. Apparently that was not enough, because although my week got better, I found out all 7 of my roommates from Fox went to a birthday dinner for one of them, and did not invite me. Not a big deal, because I'm not there, right? Normally yes, but they also invited the Kelsey that left Fox when I did... so I felt really left out. And it was only made worse because I've been missing Fox so much lately that even mentioning it to someone causes me to start crying.

On top of THAT, I was really hoping to see someone this morning and get a hug from them, because they had told me they would be home. They didn't come home... and I was really upset. I don't even know why. I think it's because without my best friend here it's really hard for me to cope without having those three people around that I go to for hugs and venting... and that person is one of them. I kind of lost it... called them a liar. Sigh. I don't understand my mood swings.

Normally this isn't surprising, because I live in Oregon and pretty much have what is called "seasonal depression". Basically it occurs in very snowy or rainy areas, and usually during winters months. People affected by it get depressed more often in the winter, and mainly just because of the weather. This week has suddenly hit 70s and 80s and is sunny, so my mood has considerably improved... but I'm still having these mood swings which don't make sense.

I don't know why I get like this. It's just as frustrating for me as it is for the people that I take it out on. I just want to be happy again.

Memories...

I started going through all of my old Facebook photos, deciding whether or not to keep them or delete them. I have WAY too many, but on top of that my mom found a bunch of my photos on her laptop that I have to transfer, and I might need to upload them :P

Going through the last few years however, I realized just how much I have grown. I’ve gone through so many hairstyles and colors, on a bunch of trips, and met a bunch of new friends.

I am so blessed to be where I am today. I know I haven’t learned everything I need to know in life, but I also know that God will make sure I do. My life is far from over :)

I can’t wait to see what is in store for me in the next few years!

And I knowwww that I haven't updated this blog in almost a month! I'm so so sorry :( Life has been CRAZY. I will try and be better! Hope everyone is having a great summer!

Sick Day

So, I'm sick. And it kind of sucks.

I had felt a little queasy last night while shopping with friends, but I wasn't too worried. Usually if I am really full and stand for too long I feel queasy. Once I sat down for awhile however, I felt fine. Well I woke up again this morning feeling sick. I figured it was just nerves, because I was supposed to work today and I get nervous when I go to work for some reason. But about 15 min before I actually needed to start getting ready, I threw up. Bleh.

So I'm spending the day at home. My brother has a report to write for his 4-H meeting tonight, so I'll be helping him with that, cleaning up my room again, since it got rearranged a little when my grandma went through my books, and watching tv shows I'm behind on. And possibly a little laundry. At least that I can do sitting down!

Also, my family was supposed to go up to Vancouver from the 1st through the 5th for a drum line reunion the 1st and 2nd for my mom, and then be up there for the 4th. That meant I got to see the boyfriend as soon as he got back from his cruise. Now we're not going to her reunion, so we're going up the 3rd. As much as I wanted to see him when he got back, this means I get to go to a welcome back/goodbye for the summer party on Saturday for my little choir sis that I haven't seen for almost a year, and a scrap-booking and possibly movie party with my friends on Friday. Hopefully I won't still be sick, and it was just something I ate!

Hope everyone else is healthy :)

Update

I have been a horrible blogger. On both of my blogs.

My summer is well under way, and I've been crazy busy hanging out with friends! I've also finally been getting back into reading so I have been on my other blog a bit more than this one. I'm hoping to have more exciting things to write about once I start doing more stuff!

I'm going to be having a new blog layout soon! The only reason I'm not putting it up now if I will have my own photos in the header, and we're taking the photos for it tomorrow. I'm super excited! I just dyed my hair a slightly darker reddish-brown with red highlights, so you'll get to see that in the pictures :D I guess I could put up a pic now... but I warn you: photobooth doesn't have the best quality!

I don't think you can even see the red :P

Hopefully the pics won't take too long for her to edit, and I'll have the new layout up in the next week or two!

Hope everyone is having a good week!